History X Fiction

 Do you wish you could return to a moment from your past?

Coming back to the past is often treated as a super power in numerous comic fictions and famous narratives. Getting back to the past is understandably a power that I wish I could have. Imagine being able to time travel and “correct all of your past mistakes in only one trip? To be honest, I’m sure everybody had the same regret feeling that generates that wish to change things which had already happened, and I guess I’m passing through the same thoughts.
Sometimes, what only remains from the ruminant thoughts is the notion that “what happens in the past, stays in the past”, but I’ve always felt confused about this, like what do you mean I should be okay with making a mistake that could be easily corrected?  “if I changed that one thing”, “if I had made in that way”, “I wish I haven’t done that”, does if statements are often associated with the idea I’m trying to develop, sometimes a catch myself thinking about things that have already ended and making those same questions, and that’s not occasionally, science had explanations for that and is much simpler than expected: If we give attention to past events our brain just gives more value to it, understanding that this topic carries unprocessed emotions and as a way to solve the problem it keeps appearing in our minds, principally when we don’t want to; this is called emotional rumination. 
As a matter of effect, intrusive thoughts like those discussed earlier just remind me of errors that I’ve committed that could be easily fixed with the “future perspective” which I’ve obtained after the mistake happened. Let me show an example, that was a party in the city and I was really anxious and excited to be present and have fun, but after the party I somehow convinced myself that it wasn’t the right day, that the event wouldn’t be so interesting and that it would be better if I stayed at home and relaxed; the result? I lost one of the best parties that happened which there were people waiting for to dance and build some good experience. That party made me feel regret for not attending it,made me wish to come back to the past and just put my clothes on and carefree of what could happen there. However, the party had already ended and I was still thinking about what I could have done.
Of course, the all time quest is not only meant for parties. Minor mistakes caused me to miss on meeting new people, on developing new relationships or adopting new opportunities, and as I grew up and became more mature, I understand that I can’t blame myself for them because I cannot time travel and fix everything, nor change my old perspective, and you know what, that is much better. Maturing is understanding that what happened in the past, stays right there. Maturing is developing the mindset that we cannot change bad events , but we can do something that is way more important than that, we can learn and grow with it. Maturing is finally removing weight from your back from things that you were supposed to do but they don’t exist anymore. Maturing is letting it go.
At last, do I really wish that I could have the power to fix the past problems? Partly, and it is the best mindset that I could have. Going to the party could have been good, yes, but not going to the party made me learn about the value of experiences and that I shouldn’t waste them, that opened me more opportunities to attend more celebrations without any remorse. The real problem is not wanting to time travel, the problem is to not learn with what you wished you could fix in that moment and that is how life works. Sometimes I had to counter that feeling of “gotta get back, back to the past”, which really didn’t help on anything but to make me feel bad for things that didn’t even happen. So I learned that it is better to let it go, than to fix it in one go.